Why Kelly Osbourne Says Having Her Son Sidney “Saved” Her

Kelly Osbourne's son introduced her to a new level of love.

The daughter of Ozzy Osbourne and Sharon Osbourne credits her 23-month-old Sidney—whom she shares with boyfriend Sid Wilson—with saving her life.

"I truly believe my baby saved me and made me a whole human," she told Us Weekly in an interview published Oct. 30. "I don’t think I knew what love was before having a baby."

The Osbournes Podcast cohost called Sidney "an unbelievable baby who completely changed me" and unlocked something inside of her.

"I don’t remember life before having the baby because everything has changed," Kelly shared. "I didn’t realize just how powerful the feeling of love was [going to be] when you have the baby. It’s the most … addictive feeling I have ever felt."

She continued, "You realize in that one second, 'You’ve given me purpose like nothing has ever given me before.' I don’t think I had purpose. I went from thing to thing to thing, and this level of self-hate and self-doubt that I used to have would just take me out."

The Fashion Police alum—who has been candid about her past struggles with addiction—said that she doesn't think she would've been equipped to look after her son at earlier points in her life.

"I don’t believe God would’ve given me a baby during a time when I wasn’t mentally or physically prepared for it," Kelly reflected. "[When] I was still actively drinking, still actively using … I would’ve been a terrible mother. I wasn’t selfless enough."

She added, "I’m so glad it happened when I was a little older and I had my s--t together."

In fact, Kelly—who just turned 40 on Oct. 27—once doubted that she would even make it to the milestone birthday.

"There was a time where everyone around me was dying and ODing or something horrible," she explained. "I got survivor’s guilt because I was like, 'Well, why have they spared me?' It wasn’t until I turned about 33 that I sat back and was like, 'I need to work on me. I need to figure this out because it will be me next.'"

The star further opened up about her experience with addiction.

"I used to carry around the shame of being an addict everywhere with me, and it was a heavy burden to bear," Kelly, who has been open about her sobriety journey, shared. "You feel like such a loser when you’re in it. I never did drugs because I wanted to party. I did drugs because I wanted to numb myself. I hated who I was. I felt so uncomfortable and not worthy of anything that happened to me."

Ultimately, becoming a mother and turning 40 represent opportunities for the So Undercover actress to start fresh.

"Turning 40 is the opportunity to be the real me and say goodbye to all of the past," she said. "I get to start again."

Keep reading for more about Kelly's experience with motherhood.

"It's scary as f--k because you don't want to make a mistake," Kelly Osbourne told E! News in September 2023 about becoming a mom to son Sidney with Slipknot DJ Sid Wilson.

"It's all these little tiny things and these mistakes that you ultimately make because you can't learn unless you make a mistake," she explained. "It's just unfortunate that you have to do it with a baby."

Kelly was diagnosed with gestational diabetes "well into my third trimester," she told People in September 2022, "so it wasn't like I developed it as some people get it from the get-go when they're pregnant. I got it in my third trimester and basically, I thought it was something that I had done wrong."

Her only pregnancy craving had been sugar, especially sweet drinks, Kelly explained, and even though she tried to temper it by drinking fresh-pressed juice, "it still had a lot more sugar than I needed."

Once she made purposeful changes in her diet, she continued, she suffered from a sugar-withdrawal headache for awhile but ultimately lost 10 pounds, stopped having to wear compression socks and her skin cleared up.

"I wish I had this kind of incentive prior because I've never been able to stick to anything a hundred percent the way that I have been doing this because I'm not doing it for myself," Kelly said. "I'm doing it for my baby. But I have learned—I can't even begin to tell you the changes that it's made."

What mom doesn't look at her kid sometimes and marvel, Hey, look what I made?!

"No, I cannot believe I have a baby," Kelly said on TODAY in May 2023, talking to Hoda Kotb and Jenna Bush Hager ahead of her first Mother's Day.

"I have a beautiful little baby boy," she continued, "and he is my reason for living, my reason for getting up in the morning, my whole life revolves around him. And now I understand what the word 'purpose' really means."

"I have a new found respect for working mothers," Kelly wrote on Instagram in February 2023. "I took my first job since having a baby. Having to leave him this morning was one of the hardest things I have ever done. This day can't go by quick enough for me. I can't want to have him back in my arms."

She solved that problem the next day: "I could not leave him again so it's bring your #BringYourBabyToWorkDay," she posted to Instagram Story.

Just because she can wrangle some alone time, actually wanting it is another story.

"My mum is trying to get me to not be so attached to the baby right now, because I don't do anything unless it has something to do with my baby," Kelly told E!, "and she's like, 'You have to take some time out for you.' But I try and do it, and the next thing I know, I'm sneaking out the back door to go home to be with my baby."

While some celebs host a real bumpfest on social media, flashing bare bellies right up to their due dates, Kelly was admittedly self-conscious about sharing her journey in real time with millions of people (after announcing that she was expecting with the aid of a few sonogram snaps).

"There are no pictures of me pregnant," she replied in August to an Instagram commenter who asked if she'd used a surrogate to deliver Sidney, "because I hid for 9 months because I did not want to get fat shamed."

She also couldn't help comparing herself to the ladies who leaned into their pregnancy silhouettes in public.

"You can wear so many things that weren't considered appropriate before and then Rihanna changed it for everyone," Kelly said on Dax Holt and Adam Glyn's Hollywood Raw podcast. "Also, it made me sad because I didn't get to show off my pregnancy belly because I literally was a f--king moose and it was embarrassing."

Kelly admittedly wanted to get back into fighting shape as soon as possible after Sidney was born.

"I'm going to be honest," she told E! in September 2023, "I felt the pressure of, after having the baby, to lose the baby weight. It became my mission. I was obsessed with it because I didn't even want to get brought into the conversation, I just wanted to be left alone."

Getting it done was "miserable," albeit worth it for her in the end. "I was hungry all the time," she shared, "but I'm really happy with the results."

However, at one point she decided she was overdoing it.

"I was like, 'Well, I lost all the baby weight. Let's see how far I can go with it,'" she told Scheana Shay on the Sept. 8 episode of her Scheananigans podcast, "and then went a little too far."

Having been candid in the past about setbacks in her recovery, Kelly marked a year of sobriety on May 27, 2022, a few weeks after announcing she was pregnant.

"What a difference a year can make!" she wrote on Instagram. "If you would have told me 365 days ago that I would be sober, happy, and about to be a mumma I would have laughed in your face. Life is truly amazing when you do the work. Thank you to everyone that has supported me on this journey. I love you all so much!!!!!!!""

Referencing "the biggest fight me and my baby's father have ever, ever, ever had, and probably ever, ever, will," Kelly revealed in February 2024 that she and Sid plan to give their little one a double-barreled last name. 

"I wanted our son to have both of our last names, and he wouldn't let me," she shared on The Osbournes Podcast. We had a huge fight. I feel that I was forced into doing something I didn't wanna do."

While she compromised, Kelly continued, "after lots of eye-opening conversations and some couples therapy, he has seen the light. We are going to legally change our son's name to have both of our last names."

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